Doing Art is sometimes more of overcoming fear, hesitations, mental block and other biases that you might have inculcated in you.
What you look for is a conceptual space where the (artistic) rules are bendable and it takes a lot of effort to be in that mental conceptual space. And then there is this fear that your Artwork will not be appreciated.
But should you care; isn’t art also about developing a lexicon, a vocabulary of (abstract) expressions. It’s a lifestyle of being in the uncomfortable domain. And yet deep down we are all just cowards.
Art gives me a place to escape to and be my self.